"REALLY?!"

sometime's i have to remind myself that i'm not the one who's crazy. seriously.

"Fucking Ants!"

i just got a second job working graveyards at Kohl's. it's now as bad as it sounds, it'sonly 3 nights a week, and it's extra money.

horray!

"I Landed On Some Hard Times. So I Had a Little Profitable Donkey Show In Tijuana...I Mean, Who Hasn't, Right?"

well, i landed the gig at Creative Wellness. which is good. GREAT actually. it's my dream job. it's scary though, so real. it'll be interesting working around dr's and chiropractors and other MT's who've been doing this for YEARS. i'm the total newbe. i just really...REALLY have to focus and work my ass off now to develop a steady practice. plus save up money and move out of here, in about 2 weeks 37,000 college students are about to take over the city, but i still think housing will be ok on my side of town. plus rent is SUPER cheap out here. in the complex i'm in now i could get a 1 bdr townhome for 650 a month. so once i start working i'll be good, right? (fingers crossed) plus i need to work out going back home to get my dog. i miss my princess.

ok...that's all for now.

:SIGH:

things aren't always as they seem. i show face because i don't want anybody to worry. i'm in a horrible situation right now and i don't know what to do.

i have my final meeting with Creative Welness today. i hope it goes well.

...if not, i'm headed home.

i just thought it'd be easier.


(please say a prayer for me)

"HORRAY!!!"

the Scissor Sisters are going to be in chicago in october!!! KICK.ASS. i'm SO there.

"Well, SOMEONE'S Being Bossy"

everyone....this is derrick:

...derrick this is everyone.

enjoy.

(BTW-he.kicks.ass)

i'm sorry you had to go through that.
I'm sorry you hurt.
If i could give up something that brings me joy
...just so you wouldn't feel that, i would,
without question.

i feel like shit.
i feel like a schmuck.

i'm sorry.

"By Spending More Time With Them, It Just Means That I'm Spending Less Time With You. Understand?"

i LOVE Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends. it makes me happy. ok...that's all.

"The G Damn Cat Is Trying To Kill Me!"

the kitty has it out for me. i'm serious.

one would think that living by an IKEA would be total hottness, right? not so much. see...the thing is, you have to figure out when to go when there isn't going to be half a million people there all at the same time. it's madness, i tell you, scandanavian MADNESS!!

the reality is that time are slow and times are tight, but i think if i stay positive things will pick up....

...i dunno, i guess i just thought things would be easier. but. if things are just handed to you, then the reward isn't as sweet.

light a candle.