ah, there's nothing sweeter than ringing in the new year here at work. it's like i can hear the champagne corks a-poppin right now. mmmm, charming. anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR, SUCKAAAAAAS! i hope the new year brings you love and joy and prosperity and lots and lots of dirty dirty porn star sex!!
yesterday i started to get work done on my half sleeve. when i went in i really didn't know what i wanted, but i've seen this guys work and knew i could trust him no matter what we decide to do. the first thing he told me was that he needed to touch up the tribal work on my arm (which, if memory serves is about 12 years old) cause he just couldn't bear to see it like that anymore. plus, the project would be much more difficult because of the distance and positioning of my tribal eye and my sun tattoos. he suggested we could do a cover up to make things easier, a suggestion i am totally against. i love my tattoos that i already have they are a part of me and i got them for a reason, they're like little bookmarks of my life. so we decided to start with one peice and go from there. i was in the chair yesterday for 3 hours straight. i think about 2 and a half hours into it all the pain blocking chemicals stopped working. but i took it like a trooper, and today i'm pretty sore. oh, and here's what we decided to do: the peice that i got done is water, the next will be fire and metal then wood, air and earth. all the elements, get it? sounds cheesey, but i think it's going to work. and...at this point in my life this theme TOTALLY makes sense. the kicker is, he's adapting my tribal eye to "morph" into these elements.
when i was 18 i got my first tattoo, it was a rose and a rosebud wrapped around a sword. all the men (well almost) on my dad's side of the family have some sort of tattoo of a rose. so naturally i figured i had to have one too. and the rose stands for my dad and the rosebud my mom, and the sword represents the strength i get from them. well, that and the fact that my mom told me if i ever got a "MOM" tattoo, she would personally cut off my arm, and that would be bad. the next tattoo i got was the tribal "eye". i had started to go to alot of raves back then and experience new and different things in my life. i began to find out that there was more to life then the bubble i knew. so the eye symbolizes the new way i began to see the world, through my own eyes. after that was my sun tattoo, which if you look closely...is me! there are lots of things going on with this one. obviously, because my name is Sonny. and, it was a bonding between me and my best friend growing up, Sunshine. (yes, that's her real name. yes, do the math) but most importantly that marked the time in my life when i came out...that one's a biggie. next, the aforementioned friend did something bad and left town with her boyfriend. split, gone, nadda. i didn't know where she was, i didn't know if she was ok...hell, i didn't even know if she was alive, literally. it was a really, really bad time for me. i felt like part of my heart was ripped out. for weeks i couldn't function, all i did was cry and worry. i had detectives at my house, i had her mom mad at me because i had to tell her her daughter was using. it hurt. i went out alone and coming from my first tattoo, which meant so much to me i had a tangle of vines wrapping around my arm, it's how i felt at the time. and again, it serves as a memory of what happened. after that a made 3 very good friends who, in a way, took me in during this time. they comforted me in their own way and made me a home. i developed (what i would like to think) a life long connection to them. one is a beautiful healing soul i'll carry with me forever. one is the brother i never had. and one is a love i'll forever hold in my heart. they get the tribal work that is interwoven in the vines. they took that pain away for me. and i'm greatful to them for that...
and the last. the last one is a secret, that until now nobody knew about, and it's the most special. all i'll say is that it's the number 3.
so long story short, i'll never cover any of them up. i can't. so morphing the eye into this is really symbolizing my new way of seeing more than just the world around me, it's a new way of seeing me.
oh yeah, here's the work so far:
2 comments:
ok,
A) You didn't tell me you had mice and you let sit in your living room like prey to the slaughter.....remind me to never have BBQ at your house.
2) You make me want to get tattoos...lot's of them.
lastly) I know I have missed you but i didn't realize how much until now. I am so happy that your life is going in a positive direction. I am very proud of you, proud to know you, and proud to love you as my friend. You are brilliant, talented and hillarious! I will miss you greatly when you move, but I am also excited for the posabilities of what lies ahead for you! It's very early and I must be hormonal so forgive me, just didn't know if "I had told you lately that I love you" (sing that part it lightens up the whole comment :))
The tat is looking sweet, and like Lisa, you make ME want one! Will I ever grow the balls?
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