"I Don't Care How Cold You Say It Is, I'm Not Going To 'Feel' Your Nose!"

hmmm...ok,

This is to you. (and you know who you are):

i guess i should rephrase. i think i may have said and/or implied that i don't owe you an explanation. that's not right, in fact...it's just not cool. after dinner with lisa the other night (buca di beppo, yummy!), you some how came up in conversation. she said she started to look at this whole "mess" from your end. and for me to say that i don't, in anyway, owe you an explanation is totally bullshit. and i whole-heartedly agree. i agree, because...that's not what i meant to say. and i should have been more specific. (a lesson i'm learning more and more as i get older) here's what i mean:

for you to ask me for further explanation about decisions that i have made, regarding you specifically, is totally fair and i will answer ANY questions you have. honestly and uncensored. (now i'm not meaning to bring up the past here as any sort of "leverage" or "grudge",but just as an example)

after you came back and we talked that night at your house i asked you "what happened", which is fair, but i never asked you "why"...and to this day i don't know why. and i don't care "why". that's between you and him, that's your business. in the same manner I DO owe you an explanation, totally, but...i don't feel that i have to justify my actions. that, i'll have to trust that you'll understand with any explanation i have to give. explanation vs. justification, i hope you can see the difference between the two in my eyes. just like that night, wanting to know what happened is "fair", but to ask "why" (at least the way i saw it, and still do) was uncalled for, because i had already forgiven you the day you left.

just some food for thought.

p.s.- thanks lisa! sometimes it takes a really good friend to tell another friend he's being a total asshat! :)