seriously i gotta' lay off the redbull, it's just that i'bought some the other day to give me a kick start for my black friday shopping gig and now it's just staring at me in the fridge. what the hell else am i supposed to do, right? but i drank the last one today when i got into work, and now i'm crashing.
i reintroduced maddie to her kong. she loves that thing, it's like doggie heroin. i swear to god if i see her out on the street turnin' tricks for kong i'm gonna have to stage an intervention.
so i've been the neglectful bloggy parent again, but let me give you a rundown of my past 8 weeks...work, school, work, school, work, school, school, work, school, work, work, school, work, work, school, school, school, work, school
you get the point, right?
i'm trying to remember all the shit that's happened in the past few months, but sometimes i can barely remember my name so if i left out some stuff, please...do forgive me.
letsee. saw nin. that kicked ass. alot. met up with bob, justin, cristal, miki, matt and pam(olive) in the super special spiral line. we heard the soundcheck which was neat-o and got let in before the public. i felt like an ass, sorta, acting all important (we all were). but fuck it, like the shampoo commercial said...i could because i'm worth it. and the show was good, but you know that.
hey! here's some pics:
here we are a'waitin for the show to start, hey, there's justin in the back!
Miki and Bob right before NIN came out.
um, what else? oh! I'm almost done with school, which is good. everybody keeps saying "oh, that was fast"...really? not for me. but the good news is i have 4 weeks left. i still have to take the CRAP exam (yes, that's what it's called) and the national exam, so i'm not looking forward to that. i'm glad i'm done, i have worked pretty hard for it too. and i'll be paying for a long time too...damn student loans.
i'm moving. to michigan, that should be interesting. and cold. but i don't think it'll be forever, i'm going to try and end up in atlanta sometime within 5 years.
alright i'm tired, still workin' off my turkey hangover. when i remember more i'll post again.
2 comments:
Of course I remember what Margaret said and you know that I believe it. That is exactly why I have issues with the way things ended between us. I am not the one who decided to remove you from my life. I don't want you to misunderstand what I meant when I said it wasn't about me. I don't mean that it should have been about me. It shouldn't have been about you. It should have been about US. I get that you needed to change your life, obviously that message was received. However, the decision you made for you also changed my life. So, what I meant was that on that night it was about you saying what you needed to but I didn't have that same chance. I think I deserve that. Just like you deserved your chance to say what you needed to say to me after I came back home. That's part of what was needed for forgivness, so that we could move on. I understand how important that conversation was, and I'm dissapointed in you that you denied me the same opportunity. I do love you, and I always will. If you ever need me I'll be there, but someday you owe me a conversation. I want you to be happy, and if that means me not being in it then so be it. I know we're connected to each other in a way that neither of us ever will be with anyone else. After all, who else will EVER be able to understand shim? Good luck in Michigan. I'll see you down the road....where all roads lead; Paul's penis.
exactly.
but remember, things have not ended. that sounds so permanent, and it's not. i'm still here...living, breathing. as are you. things aren't over until the fat lady sings and i'm pushin' up daisies. yes, i'm the one who decided to remove myself, understand though it wasn't really from anybody's life though. i removed myself from my life. i know that your life was changed by the decision that i made (trust me, i know how that feels)and like i said that night i'm sorry if my decision hurt you, but i am in no way sorry for my decision itself. (i know that might sound bad, but if it weren't for that i would not be here today. literally) i totally agree that there's a conversation that can be had between us. i'm open to the possibility of anything. by saying that it was about me, i meant "about me" in a bigger picture. not to sound like i'm on riki lake or anything, but it's all about me. every decision, action, thought, emotion i have or create is ALL about me. and i take ownership of it. that's all i meant by that.
after i told you happy birthday and that i was well, i SAW that you were visibly um...upset? shocked? i dunno. i realized that maybe that was not the best forum to decide to say something. so i walked away before i could make an akward situation even MORE akward. but YOU DO have a chance to say what you need to say, absolutly. i can't deny you that, that's all you. that's why i say that the ball is in your court. it is. out of the billions of possible choices to make, if you want to continue this dialog, how YOU want to...it's up to you to make that choice. i'm giving you that. whatever choice you make, i'll respect.
don't count yourself out of my life just yet. the fat lady ain't even warmed up yet.
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